These pieces exits to express multiple ideas taken from virtual and drawn out concepts. The final piece is the accumulation of documentation.
The intention lends itself to the goal of manipulating and layering paint, clay, string, and paper cut outs from initial planning. Committed to the plan, the overall piece is still a fluid and free process of thought and execution.
"Gemini Journal | Pity Party," Acrylic paint, clay, string, and cardboard on canvas, 48 X 36 in., (2021)
I applied to a grant and I felt that it was mine. I claimed it, and was not a recipient. I was feeling discouraged and felt like, in that moment, my work was not enough. I allowed myself to feel overcome and underwhelmed by the panel's decisions. I painted, wrote a memo to myself in the virtual world, listened to music, and opened a bottle of wine. I indulged in a pity party. I reminded myself that it is me vs. me. My only job is to be better than I was yesterday and to keep going. I created this piece in the spirit of those emotions passing through and passing by.
The next day I felt ten times better and grateful that I had even applied myself. Not just to the grant and the many others, but for applying myself in general. For being able to consistently show up for myself and remain present today to have a fruitful future.